I’m still here, I’m alive.


I look around, and I see the groans of a people saying “I’m still here, I’m alive, technically.” 

While this may not be a proper post, I wanted to try to put to words how I’ve been feeling, because maybe some of you have been wondering, worrying. And because maybe a part of me has been wondering myself. 

I’ve been feeling like most things are useless lately. Maybe it’s nihilism, maybe it’s depression, global awareness, or just growing up. And it’s not pretty. 

I’m not asking any of you for help, encouragement or money or anything. I know I’ll be alright, and at the same time, I won’t. I guess that’s kind of the point. 

Every day I wake up and I think how very grateful I am to be alive, even if it feels like this right now, so heavy. And it’s not because I have hope that things will get better, even though I do, and they probably will, eventually. But really, it’s that life, even at its hardest, is so beautiful. Heck, maybe even one of life’s most beautiful things is its’ pain. 

I can’t help but thinking that I’ve been neglecting things lately. I can’t help but thinking it because it’s true. Everything seems to have fallen by the wayside and I don’t even really know what’s a priority anymore. I love writing, but what’s the point? I wonder what there’s even left to say these days. I’m debating even posting this because it seems too depressing for this site, especially when this was always supposed to be a place to help people. 

But I’ve decided to, just now, as I’m writing this sentence, because this…is real. And I think that after everything that I’ve been through and everything that we all have been through I almost owe it to you all, my readers, to be real. 

So here it is. For many reasons, and a long time now, my heart has been really heavy. I’m in love with life and the world still, and I don’t know what either have in store for me, but I’m still celebrating them. I hope that wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, you do the same. This world doesn’t need you to be happy, it needs you to show up when you can. To be real. To connect with others and celebrate life while we have it to share in. I’m so proud of you for making it this far, for choosing the best options that you can find in the moment. And I’m grateful that you’re on this earth at the same time as me. I don’t know what lies ahead of me, or of us. But thank you for waking up and giving it a chance every day. 

No New Year’s Resolution? No problem!

Happy New Year from the Thoughts that Bind!!! We’re all feeling that familiar turn of the wheel, change of the calendar on the wall. And I’m hearing all these people talk about how this year is going to be their year, a better year, a building year, and all those things that people say in late December and early January. And as usual, it’s got me feeling pretty reflective.

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How to get a new start in life

We all want the rest of our life to be the best of our life, and one of the ways we can do that is to give a shot at a new start. But the thought of a new start can often times feel daunting. Where do you even start? 

   Today we’re going to talk about how to make your life new. You’ll get suggestions, but also direction. And as you move into this new chapter in your life, you’ll feel refreshed and hopeful, which will set you up for success!

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A socially broken generation– My Two Cents

I saw it said online that “the younger generation doesn’t believe that they owe anyone anything, but that’s not true. You owe respect to others, you owe it to others to tell the truth. You owe it to others basically, to be an upright person.” 

How I see it is nobody owes each other anything. But there are prerequisites to building something, including even a simple friendship. Heck, you don’t “owe” it to anyone to be a decent person, but there will be consequences if you’re not. You won’t have people supporting you after a while, because that’s simple risk assessment. If you’re a liar, eventually people will stop believing you. 

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