MissBekah, Author at The Thoughts that Bind

February 19, 2020February 14, 2020

Unlearning Bodily Hate Pt. 2: The dancer in me

Now last week I explained how indoctrinated I was with shame for my body and for self-expression in terms of my wardrobe and moving my body in terms of dance. If you haven’t read that post yet, I’d encourage you to do so before reading this one. Just click here to open it in a new tab. It got to such a fever pitch that I became unable to feed myself sufficiently and avoided looking beautiful out of fear and shame, but I had started to try to pull out of this miserable place, for my own good. And this is where we pick up today. I had started recovery from my eating disorder, and therapy to try to help me make new mental connections and progress toward my goal of self-acceptance.

February 18, 2020March 12, 2020

Challenging my fears: five whole weeks

So I’ve reached the end of the fifth week in battling my fears. If you want to go back and read the initial challenge, click here. And if you missed last week’s update, click here.

February 12, 2020March 12, 2020

Unlearning Bodily Hate Pt. 1: Picking up shame

When I was a little girl, I began to dance. Well, maybe it was just more like swaying, jumping, and twirling around. But I loved how it felt. It wasn’t really in conjunction with any music, but I just loved to move my body in expressive ways. It felt, to me, magical. But I definitely didn’t stay that way forever.

February 8, 2020March 12, 2020

Challenging my fears: It’s been a month!

Well hello there! I’m incredulous, but I’ve just finished the fourth week of my fear challenge and I can’t believe it has been one month already! I feel like nothing has changed and yet everything has at the same time. If you’re not familiar with my fear challenge, you can start by reading this post. And if you’re not up to date with last week’s installment, click here. Now let’s get into it!

February 5, 2020January 2, 2020

Relationships are key (and confounding)

Just being alive, we all have some form of relationships. We have friends and families and coworkers and people who know us from the internet. All these things are relationships, and to be honest, all these things can completely stink sometimes.

February 1, 2020March 12, 2020

Challenging my fears: the third week

So as you may or may not know, I’ve been trying to overcome my fears in general, and this is my update for the third week. If you aren’t up to speed, you can find the first post about this here, or if you just missed last week’s update, you can find it here.

January 29, 2020January 2, 2020

The trap of instant gratification

I know you love instant gratification, but it’s a trap!

I write this, coming to you from a place of caring. Not judging. I am not going to tell you how to live your life or what your priorities should be, because no one can determine that for you. All that being said though, there is a plague on our society today and I can’t let another day pass without addressing it.

January 25, 2020March 12, 2020

Challenging my fears: Week Two

January 22, 2020December 21, 2019

Intuitive Eating– yay or nay?

When you’re on a health and healing journey, there are a lot of little decisions that you need to make in terms of lifestyle choices. It can be hard to know what to embrace and what to throw out. I feel like intuitive eating falls into that category of specific topics that seem…healthy…ish. And at that point we can feel quite unsure. Should we try this? Or will it end in a complete dumpster fire?

January 18, 2020March 12, 2020

Challenging my fears: One Week In

I’m one week into my journey of facing my fears as a way of life, and I’m not sure how I’m feeling. This has been a strange week, with a high current of emotions as I began to dismantle my life in many seemingly small ways. I’ve had some victories and some…situations that I will gently refer to as setbacks.